Did you miss me?

I’m BBBBAAACCKKK….

One year ago today I decided to take a break from writing this blog to do something different.  Little did I know HOW different my life would be in just one year!

Let’s see…what all has happened since April 2013….I don’t even know where to start…

June-Found out I was pregnant!

July-August-suffered through TERRIBLE morning sickness.  Every. Single. Day.

August-I quit my job at the gym.  My head wasn’t in the right place to be there at that time.  I still love them dearly, but needed to move on.

August-Started a temp job that was supposed to take me through my pregnancy. 

October-Change of plans.  Got laid off due to lack of work. 

October-December- Job interviews. Job Interviews. Job interviews.  Consistently denied, I’m guessing due to the pregnancy, although I’m sure not one company would admit it.  This was one of the toughest times I’ve been through in my life.  Pregnant, unemployed, hormonal, scared and lost.  I thank God every day for my husband, who rode the storm with me, tried to keep me calm and supported me the best he could.  I was in a dark place and I hope to NEVER be there again!

January-I accept no one will hire me pregnant and vow to enjoy the last month of my pregnancy.

-I then get a job offer at 37 weeks pregnant for a job that I REALLY wanted and was willing to hire me/let me go on maternity leave.  It was a very unexpected blessing and surprise.

February- We welcome our son to the world!

I went into labor the night before he was born.  It took me until almost 3:00 a.m. the next morning to actually admit it was happening.  I was in denial of the contractions…until they were about 5 minutes apart and then I was fully aware I was in labor!

Nothing about labor or giving birth was ANYTHING like I expected.  The pain was different, the feelings were different and my emotions were different than I anticipated.  I felt…calm…totally unlike me!

After going through almost 18 hours of contractions, I only pushed for about 10-15 minutes and he was here.  When he came out, the world went quiet….it was just me and him for a few minutes.  I will never be able to explain what those few minutes felt like to anyone…there are no words. 

My mother was able to see my son born and that meant the absolute world to me.  She is someone I know I can show weakness to if I need to, but someone I will stay strong for because she pushes me to fight through the weakness.  I knew this had been the case with my fibro, and I knew it would be the case in labor so I was glad she was there supporting me!

 

My son is now 8 weeks old and time has flown by.  He’s growing like crazy and puts a smile on me and my husband’s face every single day. 

 

So how has all of this been on my fibro?

Well for nine lovely months, my fibro was almost nonexistent.  The insomnia was there, and a few minor flares, but pregnancy definitely calmed it down.

Why???  Why have they not researched this further?  What extra hormone, or vitamin, or internal body changes happen to quiet the pain during pregnancy? 

Now that my symptoms are slowly creeping back in, I’m more frustrated than ever by this.  Lack of research seems to be rearing its ugly head once again.  I’ve had fibro for seven years now and no advancements have been made, no new research seems to be posted…Blah, blah, blah…same old fibro problems as always…however, my frustration has inspired me to write once again.

I look forward to sharing my NEW fibro story…New mom, new job, new life, new challenges my way! 

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Georgeanne Hall
    Apr 11, 2014 @ 01:23:25

    I am so happy you are back! I was just finally diagnosed last week and stumbled upon your site while trying to figure this disease out and the best way to manage my pain. I was bummed when I realized you stopped posting last year but now I have something to look forward to in the fun world of fibro!

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